Rusty, my old used $45 bike got stollen
from our own backyard.
And if I ever find the person who took it
I will punch their face out
Because I don't want to fuckin spend 10bucks to get bus tickets
and I have too many things to do in my day to walk everywhere.

I miss photography, and I looked at an Olympus SLR the other day that costs $400 and was wondering if I should get it afterall
I miss the sweet sound of the "moment capture"

I'm ready to leave

I stood under the rain today
and for a moment, it was peaceful
then it got cold, windy and nasty
It was poetic, but also very uncomfortable

I think self-proclaimed good listeners aren't actually good listeners
Because they're probably sitting there thinking of how well they're listening rather than actually listening
And they have a stash of generic responses somewhere in their Broca's area that work on everyone and in any given situation
Kind of like astrologists and how everybody's fortune applicable to anyone else.
Astrologists are posers and I really don't like them

Sometime I wonder,
rather
I wonder a lot
how in the world I ended up with such a romantic man
such a beautiful man
such an amazing man
Then I fall into a spell of satisfaction

I just finished reading The Average American Male
and it's such a dire book, it breaks my heart, but I would still recommend it
especially if you're into written porn

I hate it when girls call their boyfriends "stupid"
it just bugs me
you're stupid for dating someone stupid

THE END

I woke up today with vivid leftover images of him.
and this him isn't Chad, but the one I left back home
the one I went to the beaches with and spent sleepless nights talking to
He is on the other side of the world and we fell hard for each other

I thought I had forgotten you
and how dare you, come back to me in my dreams with a bucket full of feelings and dump it over my head and awake me from my slumber?
How dare you make me question the amazing man I'm with and think that a simple guest appearance will score you a front row seat

I'm excited to leave...

I made a library trip recently and took out two books: one on natural remedies and another on Poisons.
The natural remedies one made me believe strongly in the amazing power of everyday foods! So I've been eating a lot of almonds, olive oil, broccoli and flaxseed.
I read in the Poisons one a section about Alcohol and how it's actually a poison. We have this enzyme in our intestines that dehydrates it or something and makes it less toxic. By less toxic I mean, puking or having a terrible hangover the next morning instead of dying.
But it seems that Native Americans have very little of this enzyme, hence the stereotype of "the drunk indian" which means they get drunk faster, puke more and have worse hangovers and more chances of getting Alcohol poisoning.
If you ask me, alcohol poisoning sounds kind of redundant.

I want to have a room like Amelie, all re and cozy !
I wish rent wasn't so pricey in France. But I feel that someday I will go back...

I love when I sit outside in the sun for a while and my hair gets a little lighter and starts to smell like outside. Makes me feel so natural and free.
I'm gonna bike with my hair down tomorrow ! ^_^

I've been on edge for the past week
I feel bloated, everything pisses me off and I just want to drink Peppermint tea and chocolate milk
My crotch hurts from my dumb bike seat and I'm scared of sleeping in because I have the worst dreams and that's when I remember them
I don't even recall my last good dream
Killer bees, a garage intruder, labyrinth houses with dark crowded rooms
Is it because I'm watching Lost ?
Or because my subconscious is really telling me that I'm making a mistake ?

I want to move to Quebec City with Chad
and live in a small apartment with a cat and lots of Hip Hop, some jazz and Nick Drake playin' off of our computers

Gotta start the Student Visa process, I feel like I'm on track, but these things always screw me up in the end.
Either way, I'm trying to be as organized as possible and it better pay off !

I got some of my marks back, I'm impressed, especially with the minimal amount of studying I did
I just want all of them now
I just need to know, for sure, 100% that this is happening in September.

I already found a good place to live
and for 178 euros, I can get a yearly transit pass. We're talking Metro, Tram and bus and subsidized bike rentals...
Holy, I'm impressed with the French, moreover with their subway system. It's like a maze, so many lines how do people remember all of this?!
Now I don't feel so proud for figuring out the subway system in NYC

Nonetheless, I've started some planning, annd I need to get my passport application in tomorrow and figuring out this Student Visa dealy
I just need this to happen
and all I'm waiting for, is the final confirmation.

But when I lay in bed with his arms around me, I don't want to leave anymore
This is going to be difficult

I hate the Transit system here, it fails
I just want my bike
and I'm ready to live alone, I just wish my siblings were responsible enough to keep my mom company, help her and take care of her.
But they're not
I won't mind it if it was just me and her.
I'm tired of being the middle child that tries o fix everybody's problems.. and fails miserably.
Fuck empathy

Ever since I realized that a 10min. DJ Tiesto Mix could get me running like no other and has made my workout experience so much more exciting, my taste in music has declined.
I'm listening to Britney Spears remixes and frikkin Flo Rida (I couldn't find him for the sake of me because I spelt it "rider")
It's unfortunate that the good pump-up beats make up for the terrible lyrics and synthesized voices.

Mind you, Muse is extra amazing now because they have some good stuff... (i.e. Supermassive Black Hole)
On an unrelated note --> I'm missing Ben Harper on May 13th, crap!

I woke up with shoulder, lower back and tricep pains. Therefore, I woke up smiling and satisfied with my Kickbox workout last night.

Exams are going well, I definitely kicked Linguistics' ass last week (more like kneed it in the stomach, upper-cut it's chin then shouldered it's back to the damn floor!) and will do the same for Human Sexuality and Developmental psychology, I've been training for this shit.

You know when you haven't seen someone you fancy for a while? And you keep thinking about them and slowly subconsciously make them look so much better in your head. then  when you finally see them you realize that they're not that good looking? You know, compared to the final image you've had of them in your head?
Anyway, after a week of not seeing Chad and missing him like mad, I finally got to see him. And.... wow, it was definitely not like the aformentioned case. I was just blown away with how attractive I find him. And well, the rest doesn't need to be explained.
I like that ^_^

Dear summer,

donde esta ? Te extrano mucho.
con amor

            

Sometimes, I like to think I'm unique:

doing push ups and crunches in the computer room at 8.30am in a black strapless bra and purple and white striped boy shorts.

Chad finally moved into his new place with Papa IrishBoy (his bestfriend/roomate/his travel buddy/my good friend's love interest)
The view from their apartment is righteous! You can see the Thames and Harris Park as well as Covington market (as Chad and I call it)
and after spending one night there, I already miss him and want to just sleep there all the time.

Brita water is delicious
Oven baked potatoes are yummy as well
I need a bike from kijiji.ca

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I'm now ready for school to be done
I don't know how the next couple weeks will go by

Because I need to put my spirits up, here are some insects that make me not want to fuck with nature or move to Central America ( or Japan):

- Japanese Giant Hornet
- Bullet Ant
- Human Bot Fly
- Soldier Ant

And  Warwick E. Kerr is a massive douchebag ( and quite smart coz he achieved this, but still..  ) for deciding to mix bees and have bees that can live in the Jungle ( Africanized Honey bees ) why in the fuck would you do that!?

My mouse keeps spazming and I discovered T9
Kissing now hurts my jaw
I want a cat